don't judge me
I heard from someone that someone close to me, someone I trust, thinks I'm a bad mom. She thinks I yell at my kids too much. Then there's my dad who thinks that I don't discipline my kids enough. He thinks they need more spankings and need to be yelled at more. I was told by someone that they trust me, but then they told someone else that they don't trust me. you know what none of them know? I HURT EVERY DAY! I am trying to survive EVERY DAY! That's it! My goal is to make it through the day. I don't have the energy for much more than that. I have 3 boys and they don't listen. I don't yell right away. I ask nicely, I ask a little less nicely, I demand, and then...I YELL! It's a goal of mine to not yell. But, sometimes my need for survival comes before holding my tongue. They don't know that 4 years ago on Feb. 27th I found out that my husband, the one who is supposed to love and cherish me, hired a hooker. I