"I wanna see you be brave"

I fell in love.  This man promised me the world.  He was a return missionary.  He was worthy to take me to the temple.  He had the same goals as I.  We wanted to start a family and it was important for me to stay home and raise them.  He was going to work full time and go to school part time.  He was going to love, honor and cherish me and only me. We went ring shopping.  I knew exactly what I wanted.  1 perfect karat with no other diamonds to take away any attention from that karat.  I fell in love with my ring.  But what I loved the most about it was what it represented.  The man of my dreams gave it to me.  It symbolized his love for me and the goals we had for our lives and our family.  It symbolized eternity...a perfect, happily ever after eternity. My ring became nothing more than a piece of really pretty jewelry....a constant reminder of the cheating and the love I wanted.  It was a reminder of the cheating.  It was a reminder of what I wasn't.  It was a reminder of the

A month ago I did 2 things I never thought I'd do! 1.  I took my boys to Disneyland 2.  I survived my first road trip as a single mom We had a blast!  I thought it would be sad to accomplish a goal that I set with my STBX (soon to be ex). But it wasn't.  It felt good!  It was a peaceful, relaxing, fun trip.  We did what we wanted to even if it wasn't on our plans or made our drive longer.  Everything about our 10 days was perfect! And we've already made plans for our road trip next summer....Seaworld here we come! It took me a week to get back to real life.  I didn't want to be home. I've never taken more than 2 days to get unpacked and back to life and I realized that it's because I've never been on a vacation that  I  wanted to go on. We always went camping and it was fun to make those memories, but it was so much work for me and I have never loved camping. This time I truly got to relax and do what I wanted.  We had fun and i