Trigger
Prince E is so good to me. I am learning to trust him and it's an amazing thing. I haven't trusted a man in...well, ever. My dad was not good to me and then my ex and then the guys I've dated. So, this is a new thing and it's scary. I'm learning to just go with it and trust my heart. My intuition/heart/6th sense has never been wrong. To trust Prince E is such a free feeling....I don't feel trapped or crazy. There's no way to explain what it feels to trust someone. I feel free and happy and light. BUT...I have discovered a trigger. When Prince E doesn't text me back within an hour I go crazy. This has happened twice and both times I realized right away that I was being triggered, but I don't know what to do about it. For 10 years when my texts and calls were ignored it meant that X was with another woman and it destroyed me. It caused me so much pain and despair. There's no way to explain the feeling of being so completely betrayed